21. Thank Krishna!
3/1/17
Hare Krishna and good morning, dear friends.
Vraju's in ICU. He's unable to see extremely clearly, read or do math but he's communicating and responding to instructions. He isn't aware that he's unable to do those things but when the brain swelling goes down, it is likely to all come back gradually. Time will tell.
Today I'd like to spend time thanking our dear Krishna for getting him through that surgery. The neurosurgeon had said it was about an 8 out of 10 difficulty level. Risk of death, paralysis or significant damage was higher than normal. We turn to Krishna ferociously in suffering. But when everything's working out, we forget about Him. Many of you fervently prayed on our behalf. This mom's heart is indebted to you. Let's now take the time to thank Krishna for so many blessings we have. Let's all "Be Grateful and Be Happy. (Affirmations from my dear Gaura)
Externally, Vraju has wires everywhere. Four IV entry ports (in both feet and both hands). He's in a hospital gown and a vulnerable state. All throughout the night, new nurses enter frequently asking questions, checking heart rate, pulse and neurological symptoms. When the skull pain gets acute, they give him morphine. Other heavy medicines such as Dex, kalpha?, Etc to reduce swelling, seizures, etc. Vomiting, bladder and bowel functions are irregular, at any time and uncomfortable.. and will take time to get back into balance.
Because of this, we're humbly requesting there be no visitors until we're out of the ICU. Thank you for understanding.
Next steps are an MRI to see progress. And gradually recovering enough to move out of the ICU as his body recovers.
Looking back, I can't believe it has been 10 days. Thank you all for being with us through this process. We miss the Gurukul.. Regular life with our friends.. We miss learning and teaching and seeing many of your bright faces each day. But it seems it will be some time before everything is "normal" again.Just as we didn't ask for this suffering, so the sastra says, unnecessarily endeavoring for happiness is useless. Both come and go according to the modes of nature and the dualities of this world. We're just so fortunate that we have so much support with our family and friends and the Supreme Lord. Today, I feel almost excited that Krishna has confirmed that he has a direct plan for Vraju, in this body, with us. And I look forward to the future when that plan will be revealed. There are truly so few that are so fortunate.
"May Kṛṣṇa, the spiritual master of the three worlds, protect us. Continually bow down to Kṛṣṇa. Kṛṣṇa has killed all our enemies. Obeisances to Kṛṣṇa. From Kṛṣṇa alone this world has come into being. I am the servant of Kṛṣṇa. This entire universe rests within Kṛṣṇa. O Kṛṣṇa, please protect me and my Vraju!
"kṛṣṇo rakṣatu no jagat-traya-guruḥ
kṛṣṇaṁ namadhvaṁ sadā
kṛṣṇenākhila-śatravo vinihatāḥ
kṛṣṇāya tasmai namaḥ
kṛṣṇād eva samutthitaṁ jagad idaṁ
kṛṣṇasya dāso 'smy ahaṁ
kṛṣṇe tiṣṭhati viśvam etad akhilaṁ
he kṛṣṇa rakṣasva mām
